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<p class="gmail-p1" style="margin:0px;font-variant-numeric:normal;font-variant-east-asian:normal;font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica;min-height:14px"><br></p>
<p class="gmail-p2" style="margin:0px;font-variant-numeric:normal;font-variant-east-asian:normal;font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica">Thoughts that come up sequentially as watching documentation -<span class="gmail-Apple-converted-space"> </span></p>
<p class="gmail-p1" style="margin:0px;font-variant-numeric:normal;font-variant-east-asian:normal;font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica;min-height:14px"><br></p>
<p class="gmail-p2" style="margin:0px;font-variant-numeric:normal;font-variant-east-asian:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica">Ludite<span style="font-weight:normal">-</span></p><p class="gmail-p2" style="margin:0px;font-variant-numeric:normal;font-variant-east-asian:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica"><span style="font-weight:normal">Interior/ not virtual but in a different space-<span class="gmail-Apple-converted-space"> </span>inside a brain?</span></p>
<p class="gmail-p2" style="margin:0px;font-variant-numeric:normal;font-variant-east-asian:normal;font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica">Between the brainstem and the stomach? right or left side?</p>
<p class="gmail-p2" style="margin:0px;font-variant-numeric:normal;font-variant-east-asian:normal;font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica">Recalibrating.</p>
<p class="gmail-p1" style="margin:0px;font-variant-numeric:normal;font-variant-east-asian:normal;font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica;min-height:14px">Apes make fire,- 2001 space odyssey - The dawn of man scene with the monkeys and the column.<br></p>
<p class="gmail-p2" style="margin:0px;font-variant-numeric:normal;font-variant-east-asian:normal;font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica">The feeling when you have just woken up in someone else’s house.</p>
<p class="gmail-p1" style="margin:0px;font-variant-numeric:normal;font-variant-east-asian:normal;font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica;min-height:14px"><br></p>
<p class="gmail-p2" style="margin:0px;font-variant-numeric:normal;font-variant-east-asian:normal;font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica">What age is Beth? Teenager? Younger? Older? Ageless? Folkloric?</p>
<p class="gmail-p2" style="margin:0px;font-variant-numeric:normal;font-variant-east-asian:normal;font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica">Why the cheap sandwiches? This is not a social performance. These are not sandwiches you bring to a friends house.</p>
<p class="gmail-p2" style="margin:0px;font-variant-numeric:normal;font-variant-east-asian:normal;font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica">As such - Is it a depiction of a lonely logic, an introvert logic?</p>
<p class="gmail-p2" style="margin:0px;font-variant-numeric:normal;font-variant-east-asian:normal;font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica">For sure, with the feeding of the clay stomach, their is logic and purpose, a definitive task</p>
<p class="gmail-p1" style="margin:0px;font-variant-numeric:normal;font-variant-east-asian:normal;font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica;min-height:14px"><br></p>
<p class="gmail-p2" style="margin:0px;font-variant-numeric:normal;font-variant-east-asian:normal;font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica">Mom address- ‘don’t look at me, I am hungry in the morning’</p>
<p class="gmail-p2" style="margin:0px;font-variant-numeric:normal;font-variant-east-asian:normal;font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica">Motherhood and aggression</p>
<p class="gmail-p2" style="margin:0px;font-variant-numeric:normal;font-variant-east-asian:normal;font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica">maternity</p>
<p class="gmail-p2" style="margin:0px;font-variant-numeric:normal;font-variant-east-asian:normal;font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica">passing and inhereted</p>
<p class="gmail-p2" style="margin:0px;font-variant-numeric:normal;font-variant-east-asian:normal;font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica">Both having and rebelling against the mother, feeling shame and anger and also nurturing and feeding the stomach. An acknowledgment of necessary consumption or feeding and repulsion and shame. Dont look at me, but this is something I have to do.</p><p class="gmail-p2" style="margin:0px;font-variant-numeric:normal;font-variant-east-asian:normal;font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica"> I am not a mother, but I am.</p>
<p class="gmail-p1" style="margin:0px;font-variant-numeric:normal;font-variant-east-asian:normal;font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica;min-height:14px"><br></p>
<p class="gmail-p2" style="margin:0px;font-variant-numeric:normal;font-variant-east-asian:normal;font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica">Repulsion and care.<span class="gmail-Apple-converted-space"> </span></p>
<p class="gmail-p2" style="margin:0px;font-variant-numeric:normal;font-variant-east-asian:normal;font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica">Like When you have to empty your catheter bag.</p>
<p class="gmail-p2" style="margin:0px;font-variant-numeric:normal;font-variant-east-asian:normal;font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica">What is being digested and who is digesting? </p><p class="gmail-p2" style="margin:0px;font-variant-numeric:normal;font-variant-east-asian:normal;font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica">Surrogacy? As in, Beth is aiding and nurturing this thing, this clay thing.</p>
<p class="gmail-p2" style="margin:0px;font-variant-numeric:normal;font-variant-east-asian:normal;font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica">This Stomach brain.<span class="gmail-Apple-converted-space"> </span>This Brain stomach.</p>
<p class="gmail-p2" style="margin:0px;font-variant-numeric:normal;font-variant-east-asian:normal;font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica">Body acoustics</p>
<p class="gmail-p2" style="margin:0px;font-variant-numeric:normal;font-variant-east-asian:normal;font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica">Mimicry</p>
<p class="gmail-p2" style="margin:0px;font-variant-numeric:normal;font-variant-east-asian:normal;font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica">Pig vocals</p>
<p class="gmail-p3" style="margin:0px;font-variant-numeric:normal;font-variant-east-asian:normal;font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica"><span class="gmail-s1" style="font-style:normal;font-variant:normal;font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica;color:rgb(0,0,0)">The vocal chords of a pig and sub culture guttural vocals-</span><span class="gmail-s2" style="font-kerning:none;background-color:rgb(255,255,255)"> "pig squealing", which is a squealing vocal technique to sound like a pig. </span></p>
<p class="gmail-p4" style="margin:0px;font-variant-numeric:normal;font-variant-east-asian:normal;font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica">guttural voice - something awakening</p>
<p class="gmail-p4" style="margin:0px;font-variant-numeric:normal;font-variant-east-asian:normal;font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica">Build up</p>
<p class="gmail-p4" style="margin:0px;font-variant-numeric:normal;font-variant-east-asian:normal;font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica">Anxiety<span class="gmail-Apple-converted-space"> </span>of something awaking. What is going to happen? Should I go to the bathroom?</p>
<p class="gmail-p5" style="margin:0px;font-variant-numeric:normal;font-variant-east-asian:normal;font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica;min-height:14px"><br></p>
<p class="gmail-p4" style="margin:0px;font-variant-numeric:normal;font-variant-east-asian:normal;font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica">Memory loss- back to the brain</p>
<p class="gmail-p4" style="margin:0px;font-variant-numeric:normal;font-variant-east-asian:normal;font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica">logic becomes repetitive and<span class="gmail-Apple-converted-space"> </span>dilapidated</p>
<p class="gmail-p4" style="margin:0px;font-variant-numeric:normal;font-variant-east-asian:normal;font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica">falling in on yourself</p>
<p class="gmail-p4" style="margin:0px;font-variant-numeric:normal;font-variant-east-asian:normal;font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica">voices in head get confused with voices in belly. Hangry, hungry and angry</p>
<p class="gmail-p5" style="margin:0px;font-variant-numeric:normal;font-variant-east-asian:normal;font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica;min-height:14px"><br></p>
<p class="gmail-p4" style="margin:0px;font-variant-numeric:normal;font-variant-east-asian:normal;font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica">The voice taking over</p><p class="gmail-p4" style="margin:0px;font-variant-numeric:normal;font-variant-east-asian:normal;font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica"><span style="font-weight:400;background-color:rgb(255,255,255);text-decoration-style:initial;text-decoration-color:initial;float:none;display:inline">Perpetual uncertainty</span><br></p>
<p class="gmail-p4" style="margin:0px;font-variant-numeric:normal;font-variant-east-asian:normal;font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica">When does repetition become mantra?</p>
<p class="gmail-p4" style="margin:0px;font-variant-numeric:normal;font-variant-east-asian:normal;font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica">Frustration at the headlessness</p>
<p class="gmail-p4" style="margin:0px;font-variant-numeric:normal;font-variant-east-asian:normal;font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica">Pathetic, round in circles or perhaps gurgles</p>
<p class="gmail-p4" style="margin:0px;font-variant-numeric:normal;font-variant-east-asian:normal;font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica">Mosh pit logistics<span class="gmail-Apple-converted-space"> thats the logic of the stomach, an</span> inherent headless logic and inevitably run out of things to do, so you just do the same things again and again and then?<span class="gmail-Apple-converted-space"> </span></p>
<p class="gmail-p4" style="margin:0px;font-variant-numeric:normal;font-variant-east-asian:normal;font-weight:normal;font-stretch:normal;font-size:12px;line-height:normal;font-family:Helvetica"> nature of performing stomach brain?</p>
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