Re: [-empyre-] Nothing is Real?

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> Real: the foam of physis

i had the strangest dream . a dream where i went out see a movie 
about a man and i had read reviews which said that the man in the 
movie was doomed. it took place in an insane asylum . i was sitting 
in the dark theatre watching as the man met the woman doctor he came 
there to meet. he also knew he was supposed to be doomed but he did 
not believe that it _must_ be so any more than i did. i cannot 
remember details (as this -was- a dream) but at a certain point he is 
running away from the doctor woman and he goes and hides in what 
looks like a closet..... by this time, i, in the audience am melding 
with this character somewhat. i too am standing in the closet looking 
through the gaps in the wood and seeing the doctor looking for 
me/him. we are naked and we realize that she does not see us standing 
behind a wall of clothes she walks away a door closes as she goes to 
look for us outside. there is a skelaton key in the door so we lock 
ourselves in. the man, me, we look around and notice that what we are 
standing in is not a closet but a small room there is a window 
directly behind us. we grab clothes (no shoes) a womans shirt and 
mans pants. we open the window, we can walk right outside as there is 
a park right there the window is at ground level though i had known 
this hospital ward to be high up inside a building. he walks out into 
the park, once again alone, without me. i am in the theatre watching 
the film. in the park there are only small children, lions and 
policemen to be seen. from my place in the audience i decide that 
after his first escape from the asylum that he is not doomed at all. 
in fact i can help him get out of this altogether . i give him a 
magic item, a blue magic marker! he waves it around happy that he is 
no longer doomed. as they shoot arrows at him he waves the marker 
around saying "ha! you can't hurt me, i have _this_ i am protected 
from the likes of you!" the lions are gone. he walks away and sees 
friends of his. together they go to get on an elevator down and out 
of the building. he walks to get on the elevator first and as soon as 
he sets foot into the elevator the elevator starts falling fast -i am 
him again, he is me, we are one and we are falling down down and the 
elevator gets thinner and thinner. i have him press the stop button 
which slows our descent a little but it does not stop he hits all the 
buttons but the elevator just falls faster. i make the decision that 
this man is not doomed. i think that this is a terrible ending to a 
film so i save him. the falling elevator should have killed him but 
in the next scene i see the man walk off the elevator unharmed. The 
film is over and i leave to go home... I say to myself, heh the 
reviews were all wrong the man was never doomed, I changed that, i 
saved him... but  I stop and think... stop in the middle of my walk 
home and i think "Yes, but, movies are not interactive!" I go home. I 
tell my boyfriend all about the movie and how the man in the movie 
was not doomed that nothing bad really happened and he did not go 
insane at all.  I needed to call someone to come and give me a ride 
home (home again? another home?) I pick up the phone... all I hear on 
the other end is laughter... maniacal laughter. I put the phone down 
and i turn and i look at my boyfriend who is sitting, working at his 
computer and I say to him "Movies are NOT interactive." I pick up the 
phone again... again i hear only,
"HEEheeHEEheeHEEheeHEEheeHEEheeHEEhee
HEEheeVHEEheeHEEheeHEEheeHEEheeHEEhee."
I put the phone down, I wake up.

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